I woke up in the middle of the night and felt the ring's hefty presence on left ring finger.
It sits there, reminding me of who I engaged to. All time after wearing it for 8 years plus.
Only that it is not there anymore, I have lost it 2 months ago while cleaning my car.
I was pretty sad. I love the assuring feeling it gave me.
This pure silver ring was the first gift P bought for me, and naively engraved " P**** loves Dave 1999". We were barely into our first month! IIRC..
I should have been more careful with it. Alas! What is lost, I just hope no one will ever find it too.
But looking from another point of view, I am glad that this ring has gone.
It is a throwback from a time where we don't really know what we are doing and just living our lives and relationship from day to day, year to year.
I feel that now we are very ready to move on to another stage of our relationship.
Perils and misunderstanding still lurks in every corner, but I am sure our love will see us through any adversity.
I believe a new ring should be forthcoming to represent the new phase.
I am looking forward to it. Embrace the trepidation of marriage and life after it.
As time rolls on, I still get to see P as much as I want and need.
I still fill my life with idle pursue in the name of sports and socialising.
In the end, what matters to me the most is being with P, pursuing our idle pursues together.
Well, almost. We need our own time and space too.
In the end, always looks forward, if not, we might just trip on the rocks in front of us.