Chasing Cars in My Head

The fact that I am thinking about changing cars aside, I have been doing a different kind of car chasing - daydreaming in my head, about stuff. I often joke that I am approaching my midlife crisis, but I wonder if its already here!

Why are we never satisfied with their current condition? Maybe I am generalizing here but most people I know always talk about upgrading - new phone, bigger car, sell the flat buy a condo, dumb the bitch get a slut (i mean french bitch car to get a japanese slut car) so on and so forth.

Don't get me wrong. I am not chastising or putting them down. I am one of them. I believe my standard of living is above average by Singaporean standards and I am grateful for what I have. But nothing I have now is manna from heaven. Everything I have I have achieved through my own hard work, sweating blood and breathing crap all these years. No one gave me anything - I had to go out and take it. Yet, I am not 'rich' or 'well to do'. Life every month is a struggle. Yes high costs are due to our choices - renting a condo instead of a flat for example. But it is because we want a better life that we work and work and work isn't it? It would be kind of a weird idea to work hard and put everything away and life like a pauper...

So I want more? More time, more money, better car etc etc etc. Is it greed? Because 80% of the population probably have a harder time to make ends meet every month despite their choices (compared to my situation where its because of my choices).

Shouldn't I be happy with what I have instead of chasing cars in my head?





Song: Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?